Thursday, November 6, 2008

Life...Sans "Bailout." October 17, 2008. (Mexican Pizza)

The desperation

overwhelms her calm voice

I can smell it

I can feel it

The dank

darkness

boa constrictor squeeze of it

choking the air

choking the life out of them

I feel it.

Even over the phone

As a child

Even the worst times

Were never this bleak

We made games of the poverty

Because we were too young to understand

The seriousness of the situations

Grown up,

The games are no fun

We've figured it all out.

Dad's checks shrink every week

Mom's worries grow instead

Three thousand miles

Separate us

Light years

Class separates now

I'm building the bridge as fast as I can

Tying, knotting the sheets to toss across to you.

The chasm continues to widen

I've run out of twine

I've run out of sheets

I've run out of life preservers to throw.

My arms can't reach you

No matter how far I stretch out in front of me…

All I can do is stand here

Looking at you over there

The canyon widens

The chasm deepens

You drift farther away

I watch until the dot I know to be you

Disappears

Alone,

I weep because I don't know what else to do.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

I'm sorry.



Recipe: Mexican Pizza
I grew up pretty poor. As a result, we didn't always have a whole lot to eat and we had to be pretty creative sometimes. As the oldest, it was my job to look after my brother and sisters once we got home from school and our parents were at work. I'd make this snack for them after we got home.


1 large tortilla for each person.
1 can of tomato sauce
some pizza seasoning (or dried oregano, if that is all you have)
cheddar cheese (or gov't cheese if that is all you have)

Heat up a comal (cast iron griddle) or a pan on medium heat.

Put tortilla on the comal/pan.
using a tablespoon, scoop some tomato sauce onto the tortilla and spread around, like you would if you were making a real pizza.
sprinkle some cheese over the sauce.
sprinkle with dried oregano.
cook until the tortilla is stiffly toasted. Watch it carefully, as the "pizza" may burn if you aren't paying attention.

Repeat as necessary.

Eat.

Yum.

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